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February 27, 2008

Still Days

Filed under: Essays, GGVV

This might be my idea life ____

"OCCASIONALLY I pass by little shops — in the rue de
Seine, for example. They are the shops of antiquaries
and of petty dealers in old books or engravings, with
overcrowded windows. No one ever enters them; their
owners apparently do no business. But if you glance
in, you can see them sitting there, sitting and reading,
without a care; they take no thought for the morrow,
they are not anxious to succeed; a dog lies goodnaturedly
at their feet, or a cat makes the stillness
greater by gliding along the rows of books, as if it
were rubbing the names off their bindings.
Ah, if that were enough! I have often wished to
buy such an overcrowded shop-window for myself
and to sit behind it with my dog for twenty years."

(from Rilke <The Notebook of Malte Laurids Brigge>)

 How could a scientist dreaming of still life? I am must not a real scientist…..new new new….only new things are attractive beacons…

February 23, 2008

Today’s translation

Filed under: Poems, GGVV

John Keats 

Bright Star, Would I Were Steadfast as Thou Art

Bright star, would I were steadfast as thou art—
   Not in lone splendour hung aloft the night,
And watching, with eternal lids apart,
   Like nature’s patient sleepless eremite,
The moving waters at their priestlike task
   Of pure ablution round earth’s human shores,
Or gazing on the new soft-fallen mask
   Of snow upon the mountains and the moors;
No—yet still steadfast, still unchangeable,
   Pillow’d upon my fair love’s ripening breast,
To feel for ever its soft fall and swell,
   Awake for ever in a sweet unrest,
Still, still to hear her tender-taken breath,
And so live ever—or else swoon to death.

by GG

明星,我能否像你一样恒久不变

明星,我能否像你一样恒久不变
不是悬浮在夜空里的孤寂璀璨
或是守望,以不闭的双眼
像自然的耐心而不眠的隐仙
看那流水淙淙
纯净洗礼环绕世俗人岸
看那飞雪蓬蓬
新软轻落覆盖群山泽漫
不—可是仍然恒久仍然不变的
是头枕我美丽爱人的丰腴酥胸
永远感受那绵绵的起伏
永远在甜美的不安中清醒
仍然,仍然能听到她轻盈的呼吸
要么永生,要么欣快地死去

next weekend:

 

Ode on a Grecian Urn
 
THOU still unravish’d bride of quietness,    
  Thou foster-child of Silence and slow Time,    
Sylvan historian, who canst thus express    
  A flowery tale more sweetly than our rhyme:    
What leaf-fringed legend haunts about thy shape             5
  Of deities or mortals, or of both,    
    In Tempe or the dales of Arcady?    
  What men or gods are these? What maidens loth?    
What mad pursuit? What struggle to escape?    
    What pipes and timbrels? What wild ecstasy?      10
 
Heard melodies are sweet, but those unheard    
  Are sweeter; therefore, ye soft pipes, play on;    
Not to the sensual ear, but, more endear’d,    
  Pipe to the spirit ditties of no tone:    
Fair youth, beneath the trees, thou canst not leave      15
  Thy song, nor ever can those trees be bare;    
    Bold Lover, never, never canst thou kiss,    
Though winning near the goal—yet, do not grieve;    
    She cannot fade, though thou hast not thy bliss,    
  For ever wilt thou love, and she be fair!      20
 
Ah, happy, happy boughs! that cannot shed    
  Your leaves, nor ever bid the Spring adieu;    
And, happy melodist, unwearièd,    
  For ever piping songs for ever new;    
More happy love! more happy, happy love!      25
  For ever warm and still to be enjoy’d,    
    For ever panting, and for ever young;    
All breathing human passion far above,    
  That leaves a heart high-sorrowful and cloy’d,    
    A burning forehead, and a parching tongue.      30
 
Who are these coming to the sacrifice?    
  To what green altar, O mysterious priest,    
Lead’st thou that heifer lowing at the skies,    
  And all her silken flanks with garlands drest?    
What little town by river or sea-shore,      35
  Or mountain-built with peaceful citadel,    
    Is emptied of its folk, this pious morn?    
And, little town, thy streets for evermore    
  Will silent be; and not a soul, to tell    
    Why thou art desolate, can e’er return.      40
 
O Attic shape! fair attitude! with brede    
  Of marble men and maidens overwrought,    
With forest branches and the trodden weed;    
  Thou, silent form! dost tease us out of thought    
As doth eternity: Cold Pastoral!      45
  When old age shall this generation waste,    
    Thou shalt remain, in midst of other woe    
  Than ours, a friend to man, to whom thou say’st,    
‘Beauty is truth, truth beauty,—that is all    
    Ye know on earth, and all ye need to know.’    

February 22, 2008

Swimming

Filed under: Sports

1000m 40mins

February 20, 2008

The shadow of earth

Filed under: Biology, Essays, GGVV

今天是难得一见的月全食, 也是我的良辰吉日, 我为申请基金做的预备试验成功了!初步验证了我的设想….好兴奋啊! 忙碌了一天之后,看着天上被吞掉半个的月亮, 幸福地回家了。。。 

今晚要吃花生。。。 

February 19, 2008

Mysterious

Filed under: Readings, GGVV

今天赶着去游泳,正赶上水球队训练,占了大半个池子,剩下的几个泳道里已经积满了人,而且是每个泳道两个人;我等了十分钟,终于走掉了。。。最近试验比较紧凑,有些时间就赶着看书,计划中的每月一本,两本都开了头,齐头并进:  "This is your brain on music" by Daniel Levitin, and "The Notebooks of Malte Laurids Brigge" by Rainer Maria Rilke, one is scientist, one is poet……hope to finish both before this month end…

尼采说,“人們必須在心中懷著混亂,為了能夠創造一個舞動的新星 “。。。让我的心更混乱些吧!

尼采还说,“人是一根繫在動物和超人之間的繩子。也就是深淵上方的繩索。走過去危險,停在中途也危險,顫抖也危險,停住也危險“。。。人是绳子,谁在上面走呢?是人自己走在自己的心里?退回去安全啊!做动物吧!

February 15, 2008

Net work

Filed under: Biology, Neuroscience, GGVV

I went to a talk today on job searching, the CEO from careertrax company in Sedona, Arizona gave the talk. It’s the 2nd time I have this kind of class here, but last time is to find academy position, and this time industry position. He said the most important way to find a position in industry was through network rather than other ways like websites, emails… from independent academy to interdependent industry, one need to change his way of thinking…to make network, to sell oneself in a positive way, and the most popular question is TSAY (talk something about yourself)…be prepared and go to meetings, and contact pre postdocs who has made transition to industry.

It’s an interesting and instructive talk left me a strong impression. I should try to be prepared anyway ……

He also made a metaphor of the postdoc system as a leaking pipeline in Arizona desert, with small holes all the tube as the lucky one can escape from the tube with pipe (time) elongation, the left remain, could be forever, since the end is covered with a cap, though people has an impression that there are all kinds of chances in the end (hope)…. A little cruel, there is no hope in the end,  you have to escape from the pipe before the end….

Another interesting metaphor is that academy positions are the top of the iceberg where everybody can see, also a very small part, and the industry positions are under the water that most people can not see, yet with more positions, that’s a little bit encouraging and discouraging, depend where you want to end up with.

February 14, 2008

Charming Technology

Filed under: Biology, Neuroscience

现代核物理技术在拿破仑死后两百年终于证实他不是被砷毒死的, 因为他不同年代头发里的砷水平没有区别。看来是当时饮食摄取的砷比现在要多得多。当时的人是不是都有保留头发的传统呢?现在看来真是一个很有远见的行为,得以满足后代人的好奇心。我想从现在开始把类似头发,指甲之类的东西每个月收集一次,应该是很不错的生物记录。。。待到百年之后也许回满足考古学家的好奇心。。。

今天另一则好消息是纳米技术处理过的丝绸能自我清洁,真是我等嘴下漏饭人的福音。还有未来的家居未来的社交,你可以自动记录全部历史。。。想到未来有这么多繁丝的技术,真的是很兴奋。。。

今天的离奇命案,我们把两种转基因小鼠放在一个笼子里交配,居然雄鼠被雌鼠杀死了。。。雄鼠确实是小了一些,但雌鼠也是有进攻的本性,也许是情人节纵欲过度的结果。。。

February 13, 2008

For Valentines

Filed under: Poems, GGVV, Music

I love this music station: Classical Guitar on sky.fm, I get my heart flying, so happy….

To DD___

雨雪
雪雨
二月诡异的天气
我在冰滴里看到你
带者雪花的自由
和雨滴的沉重
你这阴阳的天使
行走在无序的两极

亲爱的,不要悲伤
当笨猪遇上聪明兔
一切都顺理成章
一个上窜下跳
一个懒懒洋洋

雪花飘
雨淋林
我沿着雨滴仰望你
那美丽哀怨的脸庞
唇边突然漾出的一朵桃花
可是传说中的
八卦莲花掌

QQ 

Workaholic

Filed under: Biology, Neuroscience, GGVV

Am I workaholic? I love to work so much sometimes that I spend almost all my time to it, which did make me feel good and confident….but sometimes I like to have other life, and yet can hardly make it…<A "workaholic" in the negative sense is popularly characterized by a neglect of family and other social relations.> Why am I like this, it’s so hard to make the balance…

I wish, I could have 3 heads and 6 arms, one head for my family, one head for my work, one head for leasures….I wish, I have 3 copies of myself, like Mr. Smith in Matrix, I can fufill any task then…when the computer merge with the brain, all these will be true…and I’m afraid at that time, we will have other troubles….

It rains all the day, heavy rain, with classic Gitar music around, I feel blue….the work is fixed, but now there is another fire…. 

February 10, 2008

Return of the Boarder

Filed under: Biology, GGVV

After 1 month of break, i’m back to preare for the MD steps again, though with heavy lab works loaded,I’m still free compared to other examinees, why can’t i make it?

Quote from the book:

Aristotle said "the greatest part of courage is endurance"

"someday you can relieve the suffering of one individual or save the life of  even a single persone from what you learn as you study for step2, then all of your efforts will take on anew meaning and purpose. make your goal the eternal quest to perfect the art of medicine in service of humanity."

February 8, 2008

Lunar New Year

Filed under: Essays

这两天天气阴沉, 实验又紧张, 连过年都没有力气了,昨天只是和平常一样的饭菜, 吃过后看了个电影fight club, 睡觉时已经凌晨2:30了…今天又是阴天, 在显微镜室度过了一天…

 

February 5, 2008

Talking day

Filed under: Poems, Neuroscience

It rains and rains in the day

i’m hungury and hungury on my way

The worm, the sparkle and the saliva

Build up cartoons on a hay

i’m burning and burning on my way

The mouse, the star and the cappuccino

i’m burning and burning all the day

…… 

Reboot

Filed under: Biology, Essays, Neuroscience

虽然年还没过,已经有早春二月的感觉了。周末写完了一个基金申请,感觉像是激活了久违的大脑思考中心,又兴奋起来,不管是不是美丽的肥皂泡,高兴一下总是好的。。。于是到basement去挑减价的名牌衣服,花掉几百块钱,又high了一下,虽然没有到地球末日,及时行乐的时候,闲暇的时候毕竟不多。。。我总觉得自己不够聪明,与别人竞争的时候处于下风;我也总是自我感觉良好,对别人的批评不屑一顾;总之就是太自我中心了,由是总是游离于 群体之外逍遥。。。

最喜欢收拾整理东西了,于是几天上午到实验室先清理了一下文献,organize的感觉真好啊,我的头脑在混沌了两年之后又重新清新起来,有点回光返照的意思。。。就像我要离开换工作那么兴奋。。。不过还得继续努力,我还没有过让老板觉得我很差劲的经历,可是在这里我好像不是很成功,连自己想做什么方向都考虑不清;我简直就是对论文生产工厂式的生物研究感到绝望了。。。我是好高骛远吗?我知道目前这种研究是没有前途的,生物学的革命似乎就在眼前,可是我也抓不住它,我对数学计算网络信息也知之甚少,只能羡慕地看着更聪明的玩家在哪里冲浪。。。

或许,我穿过层层群山进入
坚硬的矿脉,孤独如一粒矿石;
我深陷着,看不见尽头,
也看不见远方:一切都近在咫尺,
一切近在咫尺的都是岩石。

身陷苦痛我依旧懵然无知,——
这巨大的黑暗令我如此渺小;
但如果你是这黑暗,请让我沉重,将我碎毁:
你的整只手落在我身上,
我落在你身上,带着整声惊呼。

Vielleicht, daß ich durch schwere Berge gehe
in harten Adern, wie ein Erz allein;
und bin so tief, daß ich kein Ende sehe
und keine Ferne: alles wurde Nähe
und alle Nähe wurde Stein.

Ich bin ja noch kein Wissender im Wehe, -
so macht mich dieses große Dunkel klein;
bist Du es aber: mach dich schwer, brich ein:
daß deine ganze Hand an mir geschehe
und ich an dir mit meinem ganzen Schrein.

今晚游泳1000米,43min…






















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